Five years might not seem too significant, but it can mean the difference between being allowed to screw up and try again, and making the safe, responsible, practical choice because you’re simply running out of time.
When you’re 22, you can be as bold and brazen with your choices – you can afford to squander half a payday’s salary on drinks and a new pair of shoes, party till 5 am and report to work at 9 on the dot, plow through your day nursing the mother of all hangovers, and buy things you don’t need to impress people you don’t like, without causing a dent on your wallet or at least, without suffering a serious case of buyer’s remorse.
At 22, you can afford to have meaningless flings and go home with whoever’s hot and willing to put out, without having to worry about being made to stay the night or being bothered with mundane morning-after details, like cuddling or breakfast or exchanging numbers and names (your real one, including your last name). You can flit in and out of relationships because it’s the stage when you’re supposed to be “collecting and selecting.” It means being able to be in a relationship without having to give all of you, without investing too much, because that would be too “insane” for someone “so young.” It means not worrying too much about your partner’s financial standing, your ticking biological clock, and serious, scary things, like marriage and babies.
When you’re 22, it’s okay to not know exactly what you want to do with your life. You have an excuse to be confused and hop from one company to another, with the hopes of stumbling into your dream career, or at least one that’s stable and pays well and hopefully does not derail your health and the rest of your life. It’s okay to starve and live on experience and wrong decisions, because it builds character. There will always be people willing to help. You’ll be okay.
When you’re 27, however, you’re older and a little worse for wear. Your gut will be bloated from having too many bottles of beer. Your skin will show signs of fatigue and lines will start to appear under your eyes. You will regret spending your money on useless things when you’re forced to fork over 10 grand on a jar of La Mer, now classified as a necessity. Whether you like it or not, you call it a night at midnight – either because you have pressing matters to attend to, like deadlines in the morning, or because you’ve reached your alcohol quota. If you exceed said quota, you’re forced to call in sick the next day because you’ll discover that you will need an entire day to recuperate from a night of debauchery and indulging in copious amounts of alcohol.
Your metabolism will slow down and in some cases, go MIA. You’ll start thinking twice before you upsize your fries and soda, because you know that even an hour on the treadmill won’t burn off the calories. You will discover that creme brulee, salted caramel ice cream, and decadent chocolate lava cake topped with vanilla ice cream are all synonymous to “forever on the hips.”
You will panic at the state of your savings account and wonder where your money went. And then you will look at your cluttered walk-in closet and curse because you’d literally see peso signs emblazoned on every single item that makes up the mishmash of really expensive stuff in your room. Or maybe you’d find your stash of photos taken from all over the world – trips funded by Christmas bonuses, overtime pay, and thirteenth month pay from when you were younger. You will marvel at how wide your smile is. How fearless you were. How ready you looked to take on the world.
You’ve lived your life. Most of it, anyway. To quote Katy Perry, it’s a blacked out blur but I’m pretty sure it ruled. Damn. YOLO it is.
Being 27 means finally growing up.
It means being wiser and being able to make more responsible choices. Yes, even the ones that border on being boring, such as setting aside a fixed amount for bills and (gasp!) savings before considering your living (and partying) expenses.
It means investing in a pair of sensible heels you can actually walk in, or a pair of jeans that won’t fall apart at the seams after three washes. It means having a basic three-piece suit, an honest-to-goodness white button down shirt that you can wear with anything, and being able to do up your tie.
It means laying off the burgers and shakes in favor of vegetables (even the boring ones like bitter gourd and okra) so you can be healthier. It also means putting off drinks with friends and late nights in favor of spending an hour or two running or at the gym. It means taking supplements and going to the doctor regularly for checkups. (Ladies, this includes the yearly pap and breast exam. Yes, I know it can be painful. Woman up. It’s for your own good.)
It means being home by 9pm and being in bed before midnight so you can make it on time for your day job, bright and ready to take on anything.
It means driving less recklessly and checking what’s going on under the hood regularly so you don’t get into vehicular accidents. And making sure that your health insurance is up-to-date. It means resisting the urge to give in to road rage every time some asshole cuts in front of you or refuses to let you overtake. (Consequently, it also means mastering the art of arguing wisely when caught by traffic enforcers and always having a spare couple of hundred or so, “just in case.”)
It means starting to carefully plan for your future and putting your money in places that will let you earn more, such as a business venture or further studies. It means rethinking every single purchase and being brutally honest as to whether you need another pair of shoes. (Hint: it’s always no, unless all your previously-bought pairs are ruined beyond repair.) It means saving up for a place you can call your own. It means moving out of mom’s and dad’s and renting your own place (if you haven’t already – and fine, you’re allowed to throw a bender JUST THIS ONCE, and make sure you don’t ruin anything lest your landlord kick you out).
It means learning how to commute – and by commute, I didn’t mean parking your car at the nearest mall and taking the train to work. Like actually knowing your way around the city on foot, via jeepneys, buses, and tricycles. It means consulting Google Maps before you hie off to some unknown place, or if you want to take it a step further, learning how to read a real map and having one in your back pocket all the time. It means taking cabs less – and if you do take one, learning to take the cab’s plate number and company name and SMS-ing it to someone AT ALL TIMES.
It means being an optimist at work. Instead of always having something to complain about your job, find more reasons to love it. It might not be the perfect job, it might not be what you want to do, but times are hard and a job is a job is a job. Suck it up. You are extremely lucky to have one. It pays the bills. Respect it. Come to work on time, meet your deadlines, do your tasks the best way possible. Over-prepare and over-deliver – it’s way better than coming up short. Be nice to everybody, but don’t be a pushover. Don’t be the subject of office gossip, and never, ever start one. Defer to your boss, but make sure to speak out when you’re in the right – respectfully, of course. Love your job so that it loves you back.
Let go of the unhealthy, including friendships, habits, and romantic relationships. Surround yourself with like-minded individuals, those who choose to see the good in you and encourage you to be a better person. Let go of that lost love, because there’s a reason why it never worked out. Let go of people who only keep you around because you’re a convenient fuck or a human ATM. Let go, and let live. Breathe.
While we’re on the subject of relationships – if you’re not in one, do not rush to be in one. You don’t have an expiration date. Yes, it sucks to not have someone. Yes, your biological clock is ticking. But that’s not reason enough to settle for who’s there, just because “there’s no one.” Even at your age – especially at your age – you deserve to be with someone who will make the heartaches, the tears, the arguments, the sleepless nights, the stress, and the unwanted pounds worth it. You’re allowed to be choosy, because you deserve the best. And it’s time to have a (preferably bitchy) witty comeback to the question, “So when are you getting married?”
If you ARE in one, nurture it, whether you’re in it for the long haul or not. Remember that it might be the one you will be in for the rest of your life, so you should take care of it and cherish it. Learn to choose your battles – being right isn’t always the objective. Winning isn’t, either. It’s okay to not have the upper hand at all times. It’s okay to be the first one to say sorry. It’s okay to say “I love you” at random times of the day. It’s okay to open up about your fears and worries. It’s okay to have less sex and more conversations. It’s okay to let your mind wander about white lace and promises – and who gets to change the diapers. Never, ever half-ass anything. The heart is too precious and too fragile to be played with.
It means going home more and calling your folks at least once a week just to catch up and let them know that you’re okay. It means having a genuine interest in what Mom and Dad do outside of raising a family. It means being friends with your parents and enjoying their company. It means going on long drives and family vacations – and not being embarrassed at having your siblings and parents as your travel companions. It means being ready to do anything to bail out a family member in trouble – even if it involves withdrawing half of your savings, beating up someone to a pulp, or using your connections. It means acknowledging that at the end of the day, your family is your most solid, most constant, and most important support system.
It means taking more risks – calculated ones, that is.
It means praying more.
It means having more faith in yourself.
It means acknowledging that you will make mistakes – and being ready to stand back up every time you get knocked down by anything.
It’s not a walk in the park. Being an adult takes a lot of work. But all of us have to be a full-fledged one, at some point. It’s always best to do it in style.
Hi, I am Myka. I am 27. Slowly, surely, excruciatingly, I am learning how to be an adult. I don’t know if I’m doing a good job at it, but let me get back to you in three years, when I’m in the big leagues – my 30s. Until then, I will contemplate on the biggest question of my existence, one that I ask myself every single day: Leave tonight, or live and die this way?
I have a feeling my answer will involve getting down and dirty, because that’s what adults do.